Monday, March 13, 2006

"Unbelievable"

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

Now I see, what love means

*specially dedicated to suriani...wad more can i say..ur wonderful and with u i finally learn abt love...life seems dark b4 i met u...din seem whr im going at first..till i met u...ur the light to ma life n i hope diz light wont get dimmer n die down...i will always do ma best to lit it up brightly..sumtime i do cry n diz song juz suits ma expression..i cry in tears of joy n love...everything looks beautiful wif u ard...treasure alot abt u...alot of things that i hav shared n learn from u...

I LOVE U suri


strummed away @9:35 AM

Friday, March 10, 2006

Hey guys....

This is the worrying moments in ma life. Why?, ma granpa is hospitalise again n to see him enduring all this pain was so....i juz cant imagine wad pain ma granpa is going thru. Indeed he is very brave. No matter wad happens to him, he still carry out his religious duty like pray 5 times a day, zikir, sunnah prayers den zikir. There wasnt a time i see ma granpa doin other things. sumtime seldom see him eat nor watch tv dat much. I really respect n inspired by him since i was young. Without him, i wldnt hav got maself close to religion and i wld b lost. His prayers n care show alot. I hope he wld b fine. I hope Allah will help ease his pain. My prayers goes to him n may he will b safe and in pink of health. The memories of the previous experience of him in hospital was realli unbearable. N 2day i feel i shld visit him. Iz the only way to b with him. I love ma granpa but juz dat i din show. It's sad dat it happen diz way. N at this time, i gotta stay strong.

strummed away @7:31 PM

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Oh god...

i just need someone to talk to...

i feeling so mess up..ma mind juz aint thinking correctly..i juz need someone whu wld help me too

im sorry it got affected to u...

juz hope u wld understand....

strummed away @5:11 AM



This is go out to my mom....

I try to be wat u wan..try to b ur son..try to make u proud..
Im deeply sorry dat i hurt ur feelings....dat i say n do things dat u din like....
Im ashamed of maself....i felt bad n guilty...
I hope u understand my situation...Im just sad...
Just felt disappointed at maself..why god??
Why im punish diz way...the things dat i don wan to see is to hav ma mom kept quite on me..
she wont tok...wont care if im exist..wont bother...wont do anything..
iz like im just didnt exist in this world....im sad coz i try to do alot of things to make dem proud...
i just din understand...did wad they wan...she wans me to b a good student, i gav her ma best n got to become top student in Yusof Ishak..got good grades for N n O lvl n got to Poly...obey wadever u wan since young...i did all dat..why din u c dat...why all the bad things dat u spot n scolded me..i love ma parent just that sometimes they juz werent there....im so sad...
just wish i jus din exist.....

im sorry dat diz matter got affected in ma life...im deeply sorry...just that i felt so down n disappointed in maself....Im sorry...

strummed away @3:35 AM

Thursday, March 02, 2006

hey guys... sori it took me awhile to update...yea sumthing wrong wif ma comp..n im using ma granma place...

First n foremost...

i wanna thnkz ma dear...to see her support and her caring plus love juz make things ever so wonderful...U're always there wen i needed u...Thru good times n bad u help me along the way...im very grateful to hav known such a wonderful person like u in ma life...wen i'm down, u were there cheering me up and wen im sick u were there doing wad u can to help me...im sori dat lately im not in ma proper health...i hav gastric pain n iz juz killing me...juz so...mayb i hav an improper balance in ma meals...im sori to create such a hassle to you...appreciate every single thing dat u did...

As fer me. im nothing of a perfect person...i do love u alot n juz sumthing dat is realli realli special...im so so so sorry if times i juz make angry and upset...but loving u hav been so special to me...no matter wad da outcomes, i love u n im willing to forgive u with all my heart...

Suri, i noe u hav a tough time wif skewl n ur personal stuff...i wanna let u noe i will always b behind supporting u...i will stay up late, giv u my best advise, being there wif u all times are just some of the things to show im wif u....juz love ur presence, ur smiles n ur tease...juz everything abt u dat i love and miss alot....dear, i don love a person bcoz of the looks... it takes more than dat...iz whu u are dat i fall in love with...everything abt u...no gurl can take ma breath away such as u did...Thnkz for everything suri...

strummed away @6:20 AM

Thursday, February 16, 2006

hey guys...

alhamdullilah...

things hav finally resolve

the misunderstanding dat we face...

forgive me for ma mistake...

thnkz for making things da best n possible way...

love u lots..

exams coming..taking no chances with me..gotta study hard man..no time to waste..

i wanna get good result at least making up ma sem 1 horror...

i wanna go EBT..do technology..datz wad i wan..i wanna b web designer...

hey guys...lots of catching up to do..miss alot of ppl out there...manage to meet up thahisir n acap slenge..miss those NCC camps days where we "SATAN" CLT's make the camp whole lot fun n havoc...

take care yar..all the best for ur future test n all..cya!

strummed away @8:04 PM

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Now that I have lost everything to you
You say you wanna start something new
And it's breaking my heart you're leavin'
Baby, I'm grieving

But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
But then, a lot of nice things turn bad out there

CHORUS
Oooh, baby, baby, its a wild world
Its hard to get by just upon a smile
Oooh, baby, baby, its a wild world
I will always remember you like a child, girl

You know, I have seen a lot of what the world can do
And it’s breakin' my heart in two
'Cause I never want to see you sad girl
Don't be a bad girl

But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
Just remember there’s a lot of bad and beware

CHORUS

And baby I love you

But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
Just remember there’s a lot of bad and beware
........................................................................................................
ma heart juz shattered to pieces...

yes i noe i had made a mistake , we all do..iz diz fair?

life suckz..i hate life...

i hate maself...

i hate y im hurt...

i love u...i miss u

hate maself for making this mistake...

y hav everting betray me...where are u god...

i hav prayed for god..rasul..ma family n frens..n also to the one i loved...

WHY??? why diz...

tot too much dat i hurt maself in werk..din tell dad..he noe's i look worried..

i never tell anyone..

almost slip down n fall from the roof...

but the hurt i feel physicaly cant match wad i feel in heart...

i cld cry a thousand tears...but a thousand tears cant bring back u..

ur wonderful n beautiful..yet i spoil it all..

hurt ur feelings...make u feel cheated...

i juz cant seem to carry on wif life rite now..juz cant seem to eat

food juz taste sucks..water too...everything juz sucks...

i hav betray maself..ashamed maself...wen will i learn...

strummed away @10:01 PM

Monday, February 06, 2006

I feel so lost....crapz

strummed away @9:34 PM